Not enough

𝘊𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘰𝘧 𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘸𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘪𝘳𝘴 𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘶𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴,

𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘪𝘯’𝘵 𝘴𝘦𝘹𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳’𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨,

𝘐𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐’𝘮 𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘱 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘴,

𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘸𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘦,

𝘈𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘝𝘪𝘣𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘷𝘪𝘣𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘐’𝘷𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦,

𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵’𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘐 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘦,

𝘐’𝘮 𝘴𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘐 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥,

𝘚𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘶𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘭 𝘜𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦,

Appetency

𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘺 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘴𝘧𝘪𝘦𝘥,

𝘖𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘧𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘸𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘢𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘶𝘨,

𝘔𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘤 𝘬𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘯 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘶𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘬𝘦𝘱𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦,

𝘈𝘴 𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘩 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘬 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘬𝘴 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘢𝘯𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴-𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥,

𝘞𝘦 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘤𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘬𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘹𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘦 𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘢𝘨𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘥,

𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘵  𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘴 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘦,

𝘔𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘌𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘩𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘰𝘥,

𝘞𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯’𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘤 𝘸𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘴 𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵-𝘪𝘧 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴,

𝘓𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨,

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𝘞𝘢𝘴 𝘝𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘋𝘰𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘙𝘦𝘥 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘶𝘪𝘵,

𝘊𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘹𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘦𝘹𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘢𝘤𝘵,
 
𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘭𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘰𝘳 𝘐 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘦, 𝘚𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘙𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘰𝘦𝘴

𝘛𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘱𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘴, 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘥𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘵 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘥,

𝘏𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘮𝘦 𝘢 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘱𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘊𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘔𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘢𝘯 𝘗𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘦,

𝘐𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘢𝘳 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐’𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘭,

𝘗𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘴𝘵 𝘱𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦’𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥,

𝘖𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘬𝘪𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘺 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨  𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘴,

Fruit crave

𝐻𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝒉𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝐼’𝑚 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢’𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝐼 𝑐𝒉𝑜𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑔,

𝑇𝒉𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑏𝑖𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑛 𝑓𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑎 𝑚𝑖𝑠𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝒉𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢’𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑓𝑎𝑧𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑖𝑡,

𝑇𝒉𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑤𝒉𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝒉𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑒 𝑖𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑢𝑏𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑖𝑡,

𝑀𝑦 𝑚𝑜𝑢𝑡𝒉 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑚𝑝𝑎𝑐𝑡 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚𝑠 𝑠𝑝𝑖𝑟𝑎𝑙 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑙𝑠 𝑎 𝑡𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑢𝑒 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑡’𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑟𝑜𝑔𝑢𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑑𝑒,

𝒉𝑦𝑝𝑛𝑜𝑡𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑙𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑖𝑛𝑣𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑔𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑦𝑧𝑒,

𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑟𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑡𝒉𝑜 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑢𝑔𝑎𝑟 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝐼 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝒉𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑛 𝑡𝒉𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑖𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑠,

𝐼𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑡 𝑠𝑢𝑔𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑎 𝑣𝑖𝑏𝑒𝑠 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑠𝒉𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡, 𝑆𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡𝒉𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑠,

𝑆𝑜 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑖𝑓 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑔𝒉𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑡 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑘 𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑡𝒉 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝒉𝑖𝑔𝒉 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝒉𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝒉𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔,

𝑇𝑜 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑤𝒉𝑖𝑐𝒉 𝑖𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑔𝑎𝑙 𝑠𝑢𝑏𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑖𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛,

No plan

My next date I want it to be without a thought in plan whatever train comes first we jump on it wherever it takes us that’s the strategy,

If that be flying in the clouds looking down at towns with surrounding forests with bubbles in are glasses and smiles that last,

It could be here there or anywhere even on a ship with the wind and smell of the salty sea,

Something that brings adventure which comes with stepping with our feet,

I’d be happy sitting on a park bench eating fish and chips than to be sitting in a restaurant doing the same old shit,

Just hang me from a rock with a rope or two looking down at the view, feelings of adrenaline is something that I now crave for all because of you,

parachute and bungee jumping is totally still out of the question,

I’ll just stick myself on a hill with two skies on and push myself down the slope into a new dimension, 🙏

Intense

I find seduction without speaking is at its best with women who flirt with there eyes,

Your never hear them telling you anything yet it’s the gaze that keeps you intrigued,

It’s the movements the flick of the hair and tongue with wet lips with crossed legs,

knowing they want it just as bad as you do thinking which part of them your start with,

If you start entirely at all or you could just long it out even more with a delay of hesitation,

As you have my eyes on you your always have my full intuned observation and attention,

So come lay with me and let me examine every curve and part of your body you’ve kept hidden,

Get out

The worst kinda mental health is the one’s who act normal yet you can always tell cause they’re bitter,

They walk around thinking that their opinion is always in the right they’re the know it all’s,

You never know if you’re coming or going with them and when they smile, your never know if it’s genuine or fake,

When their up which isn’t often they are happy people, and when they are down they will pull you down with them,

Constantly sit and tell you how bad the world is but remember you have to agree with everything they say,

Because if you don’t your just as bad as the world, Your just like the world your nothing,

Hidden Pages

I want a book that is uncoloured that has marks in it, That has lived more than one life,

worn and tared that is hoping that somewhere whoever Picks it up will understand,

It doesn’t matter how many tears are in them it doesn’t matter how many hands have stroked through them,

What it is I want, What it is I crave, You either  love it unconditionally or you don’t love it at all,

Balance,

Relationships can be like a rope with nothing hinged on each side as it comes and goes with tension that can pull on either side,

When you realise it’s not the rope keeping you together it’s all about balance give take and appreciation with a lot of other fundamentals,

The walk which is in your stride step by step it will never matter what mountain comes your way because you’d be equipped with the best climbing boots to survive and overcome,

Mind Crawl,

Just leave me be as depression rips through my mind that clouds often thoughts,

Which cannot be torn soft like feathers spawn crept into desert storms,

Blizzard forms as a face that carries weights of burden with a smile which is flawed,

Oh, and why a marathon of cries which weeps as cold dilute fractures indent behind my mask,

I now feel empty and misplaced as suffocation eats me alive like never before,

The Black Ocean,

Some of us struggle with life and were not ready for heart aches even tho life brings them are way,

As sadness rains with hopeless thoughts
Its all a test tho to see how we handle situations brought forward to us,

Are we strong enough to over come them, we all can put up a front some follow a script not written by them selfs,

They follow what others think is best, I can’t follow anybody I only can follow what I actually feel,

I use to feel like a captain who lost his ship in the black ocean swimming for dear life,

My tears were more Saltly then the oceans salty sea, I couldn’t get my head around the situation that bared forth in me,

Which lead me to put full blame on myself I was my own traumatised Victim and continued to drown in my own flooded tears,

After a while being in the sea all alone and cold barely able to breath and drinking my sorrows away,

I slipped into a black hole nothing but darkness no crashing waves, This was the only  time I had peace other then when I’m asleep,

My eyes opened I was drifted somewhere far far away in my mind still alone something struck me tho,

out of the water, out of my dealts, out of my blames, out of the victim, out of the pain, and mostly out of torturing myself,

For the very first time in a while I was happy I accepted it for what it was, My ship broke I still have my working hands tho,

The darkness of the black ocean is a place we often visit after suffering from heart ache,

Everyone explodes differently, Some she’d no tears, while the rest of us drown in are own salty tears,

Whispers and screams pull at each thred of our heart strings as it feels that this is the only person your ever share your love with,

That love that can’t be bought or sold, Those kisses that made chills run down your curved spines with Tingles and smiles,

They asked and you Ran, They cried and you gave your shoulder, They were I’ll and you made them feel better,

They were hopeless and you picked them back up, they were uncertain and you showed them the way, now your alone and you have to find your own way,

The black ocean many are still stuck here twisting thoughts with ifs and buts looking at every angle it doesn’t matter tho,

Because it always comes back to the same pattern, It ended but not forgotten still remains close to your punctured heart,

For now as time heals we don’t have much time so stop dweling on endless paths dwel on a knew foundation of a knew found love,

Don’t rush for Love let it find you not everyone you meet is true they could just be a stepping stone to share hope and wisdom with,

As you progress through a new chapter that you can form and feel brand new again,

Glimpse,

I’m unrestrictedly bounded by chains of a Beast on the lookout which is you of his prey,

Without words speech of tongue, I’ve always found myself drawn to your presence which I don’t know why,

And yet it is not Love, You’ve always intrigued me just by appearances as the eyes they she’ll never lie to me,

Different is not of indifference as dispassion clouds the mind with insanity Lust which is neither insane,

Clear visions often come daily of deep sexual encounters of scarcely intuition of one’s imagination,

Only for one night,

I’m coming early just before the street lights rise in the morning mist,

So wait up for me cause we both know we can’t resist, what we both only know,

Doors open up as I slide my frosty hands down her butterfly silky pink spine,

Straight for her neck with dry kisses as hands explore the feels she adores,

Heads tilt-back through the winter storm ice-cold, as fire ignites between our bodies warmth,

Now we can be whoever we choose to be without denying our thoughts of impressions,

We lay together then connect as one after as if our bodies should never have been left alone,

Dying light,

Last night I dreamt of your face complexion
within it’s dying light,

Hands beared so deep and thoughts of you with me there’s no possibility,

That ever took place cause every day from tomorrow I can barely remember your face,

It’s a dream that often occurs when I’m at my lowest place,

I’m not afraid to admit it, As I’m not afraid to explore the fails of passed faults of my life,

No no no more,

So drop me down and drop me off to sleep where I can finally lay my head,

So drop me down and drop me off to sleep where I can finally lay and forget,

No no no more,

Put it out to rest,  put it out for good cause I can’t bare this pain no more,

No no no more,

As sweat drips of me like a fountain of thorns that stings across my open veins,

These empty wounds with empty cuts and empty shadows I can never ignore and I can never touch again,

I drifting so far away so far away from what I use to be, I can’t remember who I am these days,

From days to months will change into years with just the walls surrounding me,

As I begin to climb these walls that will eventually suffocate me forever more,

Be yourself,

I lay awake and think deep within my mind and watch the oceans bounce off sounds,

For the shortness of a moment I feel my body laying across the pebal rocks,

With the waves of wind that travels across my body and the bitter salt,

That smothers my air lungs through nostrils and dry tongue,

With each wave that catches and brings one layer of knowledge,

That some day one day when it comes it will all make sense,

When I was hurt, When I was mind free, When I wasn’t thinking how I normally think,

You say I’m a player in the making, I laugh because even tho that’s what I could be,

That’s not me that’s never been me, and why Lie or try to be something you our not,

That’s not me, I’m real with faults and the faults that come with me I accept,

I know I’m good looking I know I have charisma, as I denied for a while that relationships weren’t for me,

In all honesty Relationships are the only real thing on a higher deeper level that I’ve always choosed to be,

It is What It is,

Day dreaming is all I do when I look up to the sky I see the often moments that drift passed and I ignore what the truth is staring around me all the time,

I need a Queen who knows what boundries mean cross me and I’ll Cr*ss you off like a scramble book,

Be in my good books and it’s only candle lit dinners with a lil bit of Romance, fountains of froth not only from the drinks were be drinking and juices coming in from every direction,

Never again is crumbs that I’ll accept again it has to be the whole loaf of bread, with every different topping as I’ll become bored in the end,

I’ll melt you down with just my eyes as you begin to fold then hold on to my arms and begin to dream, of all the different positions I’ll have you in,

You know I’m not being or trying to be Big headed I’m just gazing  looking directly and seeing and reading you like you have never been read before,

Call me Mr Meg  for a short moment because your nervous and scared not knowing what the next moment will be but I know it all,

F*ck what people think that’s why Privacy is important to me, I don’t like people in my business because without eyes I do and will do as I please,

So roll with me enjoy what we was meant to be without Judging from both sides lean on me as I stroke you in places you want to be,

I drift in and out as a Mistery stop trying to figure out why his such a Mistery, your never understand so just enjoy it for what it is,

Wow,

Wow, Is the first word I want to say because when you go through your single period you always think you don’t want to be in the company of another woman while your going through heart ache.

Then time goes on and you begin to like that idea well for me it was like that and No I didn’t have oneitis at all because even tho I lost the love that I once knew I knew deep down that was the only way it had to end.

So for me shutting off was much easier but at the same time I just wanted to be alone and focus all my energy on myself and come out on top with a more balanced mindset.

So now I’m here now on top of everything I hold value over, Not saying I’ll be running into another relationship any time soon but I see the light at the end of the tunnel now and it’s a beautiful sight.

Leaf’s

The moment I let go is the moment I realise that letting go isn’t as bad and scary as your mind assures you that it is,

Just how a leaf breaks and falls from its roots it’s never going to land on its feet,

It may blow a few metres as my feet walk miles with the wind not mapped out on direction with no cursor,

Whichever way it lands it manages to catch each drop of water-absorbing each corner,

The endless mind is our gateway even tho most of us use the same paths to accomplish what we see as our dreams,

So the moral of this is even when the leaf broke free it still blossomed into it’s all it could be,

Loneliness kills us slow,

 

I often see a lady walk miles a day with no plan at hand, She walks the same route everyday,

As she always has a cigarette in her hand, Puffing big clouds of smoke of regret from her mouth,

She seems like a women who has the world on her shoulders, A heavy mind with no One to talk to or even turn too,

I feel sorry for her because it seems she’s punishing her self, for whatever reason not known to me,

We can only see passed the first layer of ones being with first sight, as minds always assume with unknown,

Always wearing the same clothes without one piece of clothing out of its place,

Up and down as she shimners on the path I never see her with anyone else,

I’ve been meaning to approach with a smile or just a hello, I’ll see what tomorrow brings if she passes me on my road,

3am

Why does Love have such a hold over us,
If you allow it it can make us powerless,

How can such a nice thing bleed us dry,
Suck every ounce that use to be pure,

That had a true meaning which we lived for,
As you part you can take the battle scars,

I layed and closed my eyes and saw darkness Rip through my mind, it came with waves,

It came with hate, As Sadness rained, I walked around like a lost soul which couldn’t find it’s  home,

couldn’t shut off wouldnt shut off, Just like a broken tap as it dripped with bare emotions,

It took it all away in the end, I became who I am now, as I sit and glow I remember how weak I use to be,

I will never loose myself, I will never throw all my cards on the table, Yet I will never fold,

Love will never take control and I she’ll never fully submit,

Be free

Time is of the essence where minds got to be strong, Winds blowing on the front porches with distance helding on,

Crashing rocks each mornings as cold air fills your lungs,

Laying on the dirt soaking up the tide as minds collapse of the wrongs that puts out the cries,

Corners of thy lips edges of once kissed places that meant something, now becomes extinct,

Leaving in its mourn blurred visions as feelings become no more,

hearts will spasm where hearts cannot deny, Whistles humming as they rise upon a lie,

Figures catching eyes spirits catching on shadows of remorse bodies not incline,

Smiles of joy as you part seperate ways, giving up the drama,

As you spread your wings, Now you’re free to fly, With no more headaches which comes with zero regrets,

Dating scene

The dating scene is off the rails luckily for me I’m not thirty and desperate to run back into another relationship,

Suppose I could sit there and lie to get that warm apple pie, knowing my luck I’d get the sting from the cottage cheese fling,

Because what I’m actually looking at I’m not used to, I’m old school this is new school,

Gone of the days you could bring who you was to the table, now the first question is do you drive what car do you own,

Are you successful, what’s your yearly income feels like an interview which I didn’t bring my tie too,

If you fail any of the two questions you get thrown at the back of the list, Rather that cause I’m not hanging around like a paper clip,

Everythings show and palaver, Look at me and what I’m about,

I’m trying to look it’s hard to see what you’re about through the layers of low self-esteem,

That clogs up your face with all the doubt you polish over your skin,

It’s not all bad there’s some good when you can fight through the filters of cat noses and dog leashes that hide there looks,

I’m not judging just laying facts, Laying it all out like tare mack,

I think that’s why most stay in there hated relationships they’d rather stick with what they know,

Then to climb the chambers of rejection with swiping miss matching on this repetitive flow,

Insight,

You want the truth about Who I am, Fine I’m Savage I don’t hold Nothing Back, I keep My Circles small so Small You’d barely See,

Because that’s who I am, I’m here and there I’m  laughing and Joking Then I’m out, Why Stick around For air as Air ain’t enough to keep a guy like me around,

No one said no one believed That one Day out of decades I’d finally become “Me”,  When I came they Question my ability They Question who I was and what I stood for,

Keep Questioning because Questions without answers is a mind blown affair, Mistreated like dipping Acid on skin which burns flesh seeps mucus that exposes raw flesh,

Like I Said I don’t Give a fuck I’ve all ready hit rock bottom before as actions drum me with Heat of problems, Not looking to go back down the ladder that’s why I’m constantly active,

When I am not I can be chilled tho my mind never shuts off I have to keep writing I have to finish the next chapter as feelings are closed off,

So I put pen to paper to express what I’m actually feeling as I find something being said by mouth doesn’t give it justification as how words hit each note of your minds wisdom,

I gotta keep coming in and out of this sync because my write flow can change at a minutes notice, Guess I’m some what of a story teller as my addicted audience love bait dangled from ink,

Insight,

You want the truth about Who I am, Fine I’m Savage I don’t hold Nothing Back, I keep My Circles small so Small You’d barely See,

Because that’s who I am, I’m here and there I’m  laughing and Joking Then I’m out, Why Stick around For air as Air ain’t enough to keep a guy like me around,

No one said no one believed That one Day out of decades I’d finally become “Me”,  When I came they Question my ability They Question who I was and what I stood for,

Keep Questioning because Questions without answers is a mind blown affair, Mistreated like dipping Acid on skin which burns flesh seeps mucus that exposes raw flesh,

Like I Said I don’t Give a fuck I’ve all ready hit rock bottom before as actions drum me with Heat of problems, Not looking to go back down the ladder that’s why I’m constantly active,

When I am not I can be chilled tho my mind never shuts off I have to keep writing I have to finish the next chapter as feelings are closed off,

So I put pen to paper to express what I’m actually feeling as I find something being said by mouth doesn’t give it justification as how words hit each note of your minds wisdom,

I gotta keep coming in and out of this sync because my write flow can change at a minutes notice, Guess I’m some what of a story teller as my addicted audience love bait dangled from ink,

98% Complete

I can’t  smile down on the misery road at a minutes notice flooding awakes my fold,

Storming down on its grace of its abundance  out of its place drifted from the basic of bases,

Pictures of that hits nerves race’s, Tell me I’m lying what we believe in is our truth,

It’s all lying it’s crying out loud spat in our face as we get used by their ways,

Evil is the rule of the true missions paralyzed our ways they told us it will be a better place,

Surrendering to it all is surrendering what little faith we got which is not facts it’s all written by advanced bots,

By somebody by a nobody can say they know, With only learnt rubbish that they use to distract us,

Cause they believe in false prophets false visions and mostly false selling of the cattles that is portrayed as us,

So when I look around I feel alone in such a big place everyone knows each other,

Not from face to face interactions, It’s all about fast paced hands on technology,

It’s sad and it angers me in more then one way,
Because most are about the Thirst for money with there selfish self centered ways,

Then when we advanced it wasn’t to bring people closer to there loved ones, It was to push them apart from their loved ones,

As the masses develop loss of inspiration the losses will vanish like a heatwave,

An unforgiven cycle as we slip through the rabbit hole while it gets tighter and tighter like a leash,

When I look up to the sky I can barely see the the clouds of its once morning beauty,

Lines mark the skies chris crossing, Why waste that much money on fuel if it’s nothing to worry about,

Endless effort as the particles fall 26,000 feet down and crumble our organic fruits and vegetables,

People are starving around the world and dying  of hypothermia, It’s 2019 and the poorer countries our still suffering from hunger,

But it’s fine people will say we have our supermarkets, that has fresh food at hand of one’s  choice by money paper,

Soon be a cashless society no more banks no more balances locked down we our a max Controlled society,

Not seeing the bigger picture is a clouded mind that is clouded by putting all your bets down on trust,

As it folds because you can’t have freedom of speech you can’t say what you feel anymore, Without upsetting  the rules that have been made to manipulate us,

Fate,

I don’t know what I’m exactly feeling but I do know I want it all I want the quite nights in with hugs and kisses,

I also want that type of adventure with her at a drop of a hat nothing as scary as indain Jones,

When I find my Queen she will know as when I look into her eyes I’ll be hypnotized with just my eyes,

I love it how a woman looks at you when she’s in love with you it’s bittersweet and for that moment time stops,

It’s like she’s looking at her favourite dessert not needing to lick her lips but damn I’d lick and kiss those lips,

As long as she can handle my advanced mind set thinking overly outta the box as I sit there and dream of dreams,

not done but there’s a possibility them dreams will be reality with time When I come down from cloud 9,

Just sit with me and read me as I read you a connection without touching that comfortable silence one can indulge in,

Is the only rhyme body vibrations cast out is a connection worth exploring,

Not knowing what will be as it leads up to the actual touching,

We don’t need scripts here as our bodies will do the talking and glide as one,

Love you,

I sound like an arrogant asshole how I come across to those that read my words as words and actions our of the same. Without meaning can truly be no reason to feelings, one can not really see nor feel, nor touch, neither sense of heaviness as soft as silk through thy fingers,
Each touch knows no bounds tho it flows to the same distance as hearts need to feed the illusion what most crave is to be loved,

I craved for it once lived each day for it smelt it tasted it and breathed it, living in a bubble nothing outside the bubble mattered just as long as the fire in our hearts carried the burning flame on.. Then it ended like most things do good and bad things end and new chapters always arise.

I prefer my own single new chapters now because love isn’t guaranteed and whilst it isn’t It’s just wasting what little time I have searching for the illusion…. So for me it’s not to be Loved or to Love whom  it’s to Love myself as thats the most definitely the realist thing you can ever do…

My last poem

I’ve known you for most of my life we both said forever,

Now in your presence I don’t know the person who stands in front of me,

We became strangers over time when we were lovers,

Hugs and kisses felt empty time and effort was never,

Why do we stay to see where we go it’s where we stay and stay we must not,

I’m tired of this thing that’s never going to let go it’s eaten at the flesh and now it won’t stop,

I know now see what it lays beneath me I see it from a distance,

Can’t get back what we had can’t move forward cause of the passed,

Tell me I’m lying even if you did, believing you would go against my belief,

Should I stop trying should I lay low should I stop caring,

Nope I can always stop trying I can never stop caring who am I fooling,

The mind can always be fooled my heart can never be,

I know now that you’ve made up your mind I can see it,

Blinded by the curtain veil that’s covered over your eyes,

There was a time long ago a time what we said meant something,

Words blown across without actions speaks volumes,

We started off as two Red roses that always blossomed,

Now we sit and watch it crumble into a dozen black roses,

Slowly ever so slow dying of thirst my rose petal shall now die alone,

Time

Hearing the dreadful news where my life will be heading without you,

I close off all emotion all being don’t know how to be, don’t know how to act,

Blossom smiles is what I remember when I saw you in the past,

Now it’s waterfall tears when the topic is brought up we can’t run nor hide,

Even tho you love me time will pass your begin to dislike me it’s inevitable now,

It’s suffocating both of us we won’t come to terms of the truth we know,

So we hang on to false hope through the year’s that were make it work,

As hope slips through are fingers like sand it’s hard to get a grip on what are future will be,

We always said we were unbreakable I guess everything can break in time,

Outta sight out of mind

The moment I take the time out to focus on you,
my blood quivers my hands shed sweat particles,
lungs filled with lasting excitement of the unknown,
What will be What I’ll see What maybe What could be,

Hidden to whom revels touch not by hand or by mouth,
The pressure is like an overheated hot valve pipe,
Vibrations often suffering from heartburn our daily,
So retreating is the best possible way to keep sane,
Outta sight out of mind, Outta of vibes out of time,

Baby your my shorty

Now I know your all I want,
Now I know your all I need,
Now I know your all I got,
Cause baby your my shorty,
We’re tearing down the freeway With the lights beaming all the way we’re both on a hype from the announcement I made earlier that day.

Now she’s wearing a 24ct gold diamond ring and said till death do us part we will grow old together there’s no taring us apart.

She said I always wanted you now you have the full length of my heart fuck what people say and think their views and opinions don’t affect the love we share.

It’s hard to keep my eyes focused with this thick fog on the road when the view on my left arouses me the most.

Cold air con turned on as her hair starts to sway love the smell of her scent and that lotion she puts on her body for me most days.

she whispers in my ear Do me naughty do me sticky want it rough and hard so come on baby bring it on me.

Begins to push my hand down right between her thighs while I’m flipping my hand between the manual stick and watching her do her thing.

Now I know your all I want,
Now I know your all I need,
Now I know your all I got,
Cause baby your my shorty,

She sits on my lap and pulls her skirt up thongs to the side zips me down and gets it up before inserting it into that tight honey cup.

Hearts our beating sweat is dripping I pull her hair to the right side Slipping on the gears driving down a 60 lane we almost clocked 100.

We’re grinding down the highway foots full on the gas windows start to heat up like were in are sauna as we both in the moment I slip focus for a moment.

Hit a Lorry full on as she slips through my arms she smashes through the window bits of glass spit across my face.

As I sink into that hole of regrets of no coming back my heart left with her that night.

Now I know your all I had
Now I know your all I grieve
Now I know your all I loved
Cause baby you were my shorty,

The day of the funeral was the day of all eyes on me that shot through me hateful eyes that penatrated me.

No tears rolled down my face that day was dried up from having a broken heart my skin tones brown but my shadow was white.

They all blamed me cause I was the one driving I was the one who took that risk and lost control of the steering wheel a big price to pay and a life of sin.

Looking back now I was an ultimate fool cause even tho I held you in my arms where you should of been safe was all my fault and the guilt still eats me alive till this day.

As I write the memories we shared and the good times we had time fly’s that was 5 years ago the last time I held your hand.

Dreams are recurring that wakes me up in shakes you was always my chick from the very first moment I laid eyes on you and saw your gorgeous face.

Now I know your all I want
Now I know your all I need,
Now I know your all I had,
Cause baby you were my shorty,

If there were a time machine and the rules stated it takes 20 years of my life I’d take the jump without hesitation.

Just to spend another night with you Because life in my eyes without Your shorty is a life not living at all.

I should of pulled over on the highway and never put our life’s in danger you was the life of me you were the love of my life you was the air I breathed you was the soul of me.

Now it’s time to let you go I’ll see you in the next life shorty so save a seat for me will heaven have a place for me will the almighty let me in.

By any chance your looking down on me keep me up right out of the guilt hole and standing tall and I hope one day were meet again and your forgive me.
Now I know your all I had,
Now I know your all I loved,
Now I know your all I was,
Cause baby you were my shorty,

This Is Why I Love You

You got the strength of a weight of a planet,

Even with all that pressure you still get on to do your daily tasks,

You’ve had endless tears that could extinguish a forest fire,

You got a warming heart that could melt an ice age,

You got the love of a thousand hearts all pumping out that flawless beat,

You make everyone around you feel good about themselves,

The aura which surrounds you is beautiful in many ways,

Thoughtful, Kind, Caring, Loving with a bag of positivity,

Anything you put your mind to you never fail,

If failure was a part of it you would pick it back up till you accomplished it,

 

 

Hidden Shadows

I often sit in the dark because in the dark I shut off the light,

I feel at peace with the shadows that move around,

Not knowing I know there where a bouts,

Often chills that over cross me they find comfort in me they always did,

I try to stare up in the distance mark my words when my eyes see what other’s can’t,

Mind blocked images of decades of memories which often occur,

On a daily basis to close to be of coincidences that lay by me,

Not shied away open and welcoming from the roads we walked,

Tears I cried saddened most days of my life,

Stand tall shift off the weight because negatively comes with waves of hate,

Especially when it’s emotional inflicted in one it self,

Even with all that I’m a wall solid with chambers of steel,

No title needed.

My eyes bounce off her beauty like a feather drifts in mid-air,

I looked towards her lips as one gazes towards her perky breasts,

Excuse me! She mumbles in a quite innocent tone,

She speaks only for a short few moments,

A warmth heat arose from her mouth tongue full of juice
delightful no dealt,

I can smell the menthol cigarette on her tongue as my nostrils start to flare,

My heart starts to race as each marathon starts to pump,

Of nervous of fear of disappointing myself from revealing my answer,

My confidence leaks out of me like a broken fountain with sprinkles,

I wipe my mouth and swallow throat is dry like wood chip first cut,

She smiles as each cheekbone rises higher than the other,

A set of white gleaming teeth like snow crystals appear,

I’ve been meaning to tell you,

When oceans passed as sunset set deeply in its place,

My feelings grow strong stronger each week,

We know this cannot happen so lets both enjoy each others company,

If only for one day if only for one night,

I picked up her soft hands and kissed them,

Smiled pulled her close to me we hugged until the candle burnt out,

Burnt out from the stick never from our hearts,

Some things are best just left in the dark,

 

 

It sits

I stare deeply into the core of your eyes,
There is a sunset not many get to view,
which couldn’t get any more beautiful.
For whom sits on a cloud in the sky,
Most days the sun shines so brightly,
Often tears drop and push the clouds,
to the side, not too far away in range,
I’m so proud of your determination,
even when all odds are against you,
As the storm came it didn’t take you,
When the storm left you rose up high,

Freedom

When Death moves it takes us by surprise,

Death does not talk neither does it show remorse,

If death answered Questions If death was never to be,

Everyone of us would never have regrets,

Because death is the only thing
which has a line,

Once crossed once walked on,

You actually stare it in the Face you then can truly understand,

What freedom really meant,

 

Mind Bully

Whisper of screams, he cannot deny,

The sores in his self-pity betrayed him alive,

ate at his corpse and punctured his eyes,

breath bones flesh pulled from each bite,

He close’s his eyes and lay’s down to sleep,

free from the screams of whisper he now can deny,

Her Ripple

When I look at you I see a Thousand Tears run dry indented in your skin,

A ripple in a piece of paper reminds me of a ripple in your heart,

Her fire held her tight but crushed her by his weak ice cold Sin,

The over casting screams of those pulling of her vocal strings,

Told you every day you was nothing as he raised his hands,

Often you thought they were going to be to comfort you,

Begging him to forgive her for not what she has done,

But for what he has done to her from whips to black&Blue,

No way out no one to turn to, Feeling that alone and worthless,

The fear he imprinted in you as he drained your self-control,

Around friends and on show he was your knight in armor,

Knight of life, his shadow overwhelmed everything about you,

People thought you Idolized him and the ground he walked on,

Behind closed doors, he was the devil himself a spineless cunt,

In the end, you found your strength and left him as he drowned in his guilt,

It took you Year’s to build yourself back up, on that unlonely Journey with no man in sight,

In time everyone wants companionship, I met her as an enclosed book,

Day by day I try to flatten out her Ripples, I won’t give up,

Each time I hold you and kiss your rough and crinkled lips,

I taste the essence of your life and of Those tiny particles,

The pain I taste, the fear of it building up once again,

Of your past, lived life don’t worry your with me now,

let me love you a Thousand Years from now,

A broken girls Journey

I wake up each morning with sadness and hope,

The screams are so clear
Which crawl through my being,

In one hand I have freedom
In the other I have pain,

No one can understand Me
As they try to comfort me,

Most days I feel alone
Most days I am alone,

This is the only way I
Can function,

Only
Way I can live for me now,

I hope and I pray I wake up to live another day, And cure me of this Disease,

Which is trapped and lodged into Me,

Ive woken and now I’m back
not Alone and not in Pain,

Almost losing her

As we laid I held her and felt
her warmth slip through my fingers,

Watched her pink soft cheeks absorb turn to an uncoloured being,

The worst feeling is knowing you can’t do anything
to bring your loved one back to me to us,

She continued passing out, trying her hardest to not let go,
I couldn’t let go I wouldn’t let go,

She wasn’t the person who laid in front of me, Not one ounce of emotion was set on her face nor one tear rolled down her face,

As she just looked straight through me, This broke me as I crumbled inside,

The outside of my figure stood up tall as the heaviness weighed me down more,

After having a life-saving operation due to internal bleeding and losing 3ltrs of blood,

She was a fighter and that’s what saved her as well as the prayers we pleaded and begged for,

[]Thank you to the one who watches over us, and answered our calls in the time we needed you most[]

Realize!

When you see death up close and personal,

You just realize how much in life you take for granted,

at any given time your life can slip through your fingertips,

Without a Warning and lose everything you ever Loved,

I know

I know what I see when I look at you

the mirror is reflecting double images,

one who is of the same and the other who’s changed,

The word of love inked in time, not blood,

some of us live a life to be loved,

whilst others fuck up the good of being loved,

others run from love because it’s too easy to fall in love,

being hurt isn’t easy to mend a broken heart of love,

Programmed 2OBEY

Some may think my poetry comes off as confusing or deep and they feel like they need to get out a pen and censor parts of it,

Others may not want to put the time into reading this,

Because when you look to read it it’s in your face and not in your consciousness where everything that cost money is placed,

Now if this poem had flicking lights or circles with that flash and audio I guarantee you’d be in that trance sharing this quicker then you can say this is deep,

What really comes off as deep in our day and age cause as far as I can see the limits are endless and constantly projected for the addicted eyes shut audience,

Everything is now available which lays on any platform,

The amount of hands that were tied before is now running wild while trying to grab the forbidden fruit cause apparently, it’s allowed now,

The system loves a crowd of submissive I’m not talking about the 50without the gray kinda shade sheep,

They keep pulling those strings feeding you and misleading you to come down a peg or two your never be on the same ledge or level as them even if your rich,

By showing you a list of things they imprinted in your subconscious,

Throughout the day by next week everyone wearing the same most lost their identity without even knowing what a shame,

Their best trick yet is sending signals to your brain through that wizard sequence,

That one which puts your brain in overdrive and sometimes makes people commit suicide,

People thought slavery was over tell that to people working 9-5 for a lousy wage,

They think we should be grateful when they up pay 1% then up there’s 97% while putting up taxes taking your 1% and then us owing them 2%,

Do you ever wake up drained like the whole world is on your shoulders with that traumatizing pain,

When will people wake up stop thinking does my hair and appearance look good just before and after posting selfies of their looks,

Am I the only one who wants these chains removed,

I heard these young ones are fearless and born with the eye and hearts of lions,

Its a shame that money has a way of corrupting those that have gained power,

That acceptance people are now living for reminds me of a virus, not man made which got planted in the system you know the one we live in now it’s all about me myself and I which went viral,

Remember if you’re not moving the same way they do they label you as an outsider cause I’m not hypnotized with my eyes shut these eyes are wide open seeing that pattern evolving and where were heading,

I’m hoping there’s some awoke people still out there and know what I mean when I say WakeupoutofthatDream….

How to train a person 2OBEY

Sit them in front of a TV,

They become addicted,

Can never miss a programme,

They begin to worship,

These people think they know them,

You cant   say nothing bad about them,

Start changing there appearance,

Because the TV told them,